Today has been tough. We said good-bye AGAIN to another dearly loved person as she travels the continent pursuing her passion. As a result, I’ve come to two conclusions:
1) I absolutely LOVE when the weather reflects the mood I am in. Today I have felt a little sad, and stormy, but also hopeful. The rain lightens and cools things and makes everything feel a bit dreary. However, in Southern California, a cool summer rain is a blessing, or perhaps even a small miracle.
2) My daughter speaks a TON, however the word she is most fearless to use is “good-bye”. She will freeze at strangers and curl up to me, however when they go, it’s always a cheerful “Good-bye!” I attribute it to all the people who have come and gone and reappeared on Skype and then back in our lives again. I think that she has become a bit callous to saying good-bye. Either that or she is hopeful, because the people she love have always returned to her.
Yesterday I had a lot of free time and spent a good deal of it working on the painting I am going to share with you today. It was an attempt to embrace the two sides of me: the controlled side and the carefree side. The painting, to me, is a lot more complex than that, however that was my initial thought when creating it. It is available for purchase at my shop.
In other stranger news, I have to go and get a “mole-check” tomorrow, a thing which I am terrified to do. I think all of my anxieties about all other external factors in my life are pouring into the fear of me having a cancerous mole. I cannot wait to have the exam over with. I guess that is me being vulnerable with you. (prayers are welcomed!)